How Did God Possibly Feel that I was Capable of Raising Two Children with Special Needs.
I’m just going to say it; I did not want a baby with Down Syndrome. Our oldest daughter has autism and I already felt overwhelmed by the demands of being a special needs mom. So with the realization of our 20 week ultrasound, and confirmed blood work solidifying the Down syndrome diagnosis, I was angry! How did God possibly feel that I was capable of raising two children with special needs.
I remembering googling pictures of newborns with Down syndrome...they all looked the same and seemed to come into this world with a list of medical problems. I was terrified to have this baby!
Fast forward to the delivery room when I got to hold him for the first time, the connection was immediate and like nothing I’d ever felt before. He was mine and I would do anything to protect this perfect face looking back at me. Joey is now 3, and he is the light of my life. He has helped me become a better person. He has helped me understand my daughter with autism better. His zest for life is contagious and I couldn’t be more thankful God granted us this angel to raise.
I’m so obsessed with him I’m trying to convince my husband to adopt another sweet angel babe with Down syndrome.
So, Dear Mom, welcome to this incredible club! The initial diagnosis is f****** hard, but take heart, you’re about to partake in a journey that will change your life in the best way possible!
XO- Jamie **We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!
1 Corinthians 13:12 (MSG)**